Memories We SafeKeep

12Jun09

Seeing A’s mom off tonight for the last time; her peaceful body lay still and quiet at the altar. What has been a struggle for months has come to an end, where she is finally at peace with God and her soul safe in a better place where dreams and happiness awaits. As we chatted and settled down at a table with peanuts, I was fortunate to meet up with a few close friends from yesteryears as well. In parting with some, we renew friendships and love amongst others.

The greatest pain is truly only felt by you and there’s no one that can really say something like I understand how much you are going through. I made something for you in hope that during the darkest hours of your life, you will be able to seek solace and comfort in remembering lost memories. I hope for you to find closure to the pain that you have been through all the way, and that closure comes with making sense of the best times and sealing them, preserving them and safekeeping them in a way that reminds you of the reason to live.

Hope is something I seldom talk about, because I too have always been weary and afraid of the word. Afraid, because it means to look towards something you could never really touch, and to dream of something you can never really understand if it will happen. But sometimes hope too has a magical way of telling us, please give life one more chance, please give yourself one more chance. And that is all it takes to see the world in a new light. I am not an advocate of mindless fantasy, but I believe that in the times of darkness, it is a time of finding yourself and coming to terms with a way to bridge the past, the present, the future. Darkness is a time that affords you the space to explore without judgement. It gives you time and space to feel what you wanna feel and bare your soul for a little. That is why I hope you will take the time you need, whether with us or alone, to really feel how you’ve been feeling all these while.

Though the days to come may be hard, but as cliche as it may sound, God really does have a plan for all of us. People cross paths too for that reason. I sincerely hope that you will be able to pull through from this period and look forward to the amazing things ahead. Your friends, we, will be waiting for you.

Thinking back about the wake and the temporal nature of life, it really makes me treasure the moments of everyday life. There are some things money can’t buy and those things are best kept in the heart. Like memories in a jar thrown into the vast ocean, just knowing it is there somewhere and that you once had it can make you smile and cry at the same time. Hold on to these memories my dear friend, for it will be the very strength for every purpose in your life.

For now, good night auntie, and be safe with the Lord.

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